THOUGHT'S FROM DREAMYSS!!!!!!!!!!

here i am sitting by myself,
so sick and tired of being alone.
everyone tells me to be myself.

okay i agree with them, i be myself,
crazy, freaky, funky, punky, and
sometimes "girly" self.
but guy's just see me as,
this weird freak that doesn't know anything.

well i do know lots of things maybe i,
don't always show that side of me.
but that does not give you guys,
the right to talk down or about someone,
behind their backs.

so guys or should i just call you,
little fuckin high school damn boys,
i'm who i am and i love it.
maybe i'm not a size fuckin 2 or 5,
but who the fuck cares.
girls has all shapes and sizes.
so grow the fuck up.

with that said,
i do want to thank one man,
that did look past everything,
and just saw someone that,
was having a good time,
and i know that;s part of their,
job to do that,
but i felt like i on cloud nine,
and not one damn guy could bring down.

thank;s CP, you were the best entertainer's,
i've ever fuckin seen!!!

THANK'S FOR THE KICK ASS FUCKIN NIGHT!!!!!!!

by me that's who!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FORGETTING!!!

Here she sit's in her room.
She wonder's what has happen?
Why is this happing?
She doesn't understand.
She's so confused!

So here she is,
To say to you,

I'm forgetting all of this.
forgetting the pain in this heart.
Can you see her shattered heart?
Are you that damn blind?
Cause she's forgetting now.

She's walking in this,
Clod, dark world.
So tired, hurt, & confused.
Doesn't know what is going on.
Why doesn't he see this pain?

Here she goes again!!

She's forgetting everything,
Trying to forget this damn pain.
Forgetting whatever went wrong.

Breathing again!
Living now!
Not going through this again.
Stop this now!!

She hear's the yelling & screaming.
Here he is throwing thing's once again.
Why can't he just see what he's doing?
Why can't he just stop this?
Just stop all of this.

Cause....
I'm forgetting all of this.
I'm living now.
Living through this hell again.
She's stronger then you think.
Forgetting all the yelling & screaming.
Forgetting you throwing thing's.
This shattered heart.
This pain.
Everything.
I'm forgetting now.

Going to block everything out!

Alway's going to remember those thing's!

But I'm going to forget!

Oh I'm going to forget!

I'm forgetting everything!!

Forgetting all of this pain!
Shattered heart!

This pain will go away!!

FORGETTING NOW!!!!!!

by me that's who!!!!!!!

FANTASY DREAM DRAGON!!!!!

LET'S SIT HERE,
NOT SAY A WORD.

WHO ARE YOU SHE WONDER'S??
THIS IS MY DREAM.

DON'T WANT TO WAKE,
NOT YET AT LEAST,
LET ME NOW WHO YOU ARE!!

"CAN'T, FOR YOU ARE NOT READY YET",
A VOICE SAY!!

"I'M READY, PLEASE TELL ME",
SHE ASK!!

"IN YOUR NEXT TWO DREAMS I
WILL TELL YOU AND SHOW YOU,
WHO I AM"
THE VOICE SAY AS IT FADE'S.

DREAM AFTER DREAM,
NO ONE COMES TO HER,
ONLY FEATHERS.

A BLACK THE FIRST DREAM.
A RED THE SECOND DREAM.

IN HER THIRD DREAM,
SOMEONE CALLS TO HER.
IT SOUNDS TO REAL TO BE A DREAM.

SHE OPEN HER EYE'S,
TO FINE THAT IT WASN'T,
A SOMEONE CALLING,
AND TALKING TO HER IN,
HER DREAMS.

FOR IT WAS SOMETHING.

SHE RUN'S OUTSIDE.
TO THE MOST BEAUITFUL,
CREATURE EVER TO LIVE.

"I'M HERE TO TAKE YOU,
AWAY FROM THIS PLACE."

"WHERE ARE YOU TAKING ME?"

"TO YOUR DREAM PLACE, SO YOU,
CAN LIVE IN YOUR OWN WORLD,
WITH ALL OF US."

SHE FLY'S WITH HIM.
TO HER WORLD
TO HIS KINGDOM.

FOR HE IS HER
FANTASY DREAM DRAGON!!!!!!!

BELIEVE IN YOUR DREAMS,
FOR THEY CAN TAKE YOU ANYWHERE!!!!

BY ME THAT'S WHO!!!

ALONE!!!!

SIT'S HERE NOT SAY A WORD,
TO ANYONE.

WHAT ARE THEY THINKING?
DO THEY WONDER WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER?
OR DO THEY EVEN CARE?

SO SITTING WONDERING WHEN SOMEONE,
IS GOING TO COME ALONG,
AND SAVE HER FROM THIS NIGHTMARE!!

ALONE IS WHAT SHE FEEL'S!!
TRAPPED IN A PLACE THAT,
SHE FEEL'S THAT SHE CAN NOT GET OUT!!

DARKNESS SHE FEEL'S AROUND HER.

IS SHE TRAPPED BY A DEMON.
IS SHE TRAPPED FROM HER OWNSELF.

ALONE IS WHAT'S INSIDE HER!!!
CONFUSED IS WHAT SHE FEEL'S!!!
DOES NOT UNDERSTAND ANYMORE!!!!!!

CONFUSED OF LOVE!!!
CONFUSED ON EVERYTHING!!

SO ALONE SHE WILL SIT.
WONDERING WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO HER.

ALONE IS THE LONINESS THAT NO ONE,
SHOULD FEEL IN THEIR HEART'S!!!

BY ME THAT'S WHO

LIFE!!!!!!

What can you say to her?
She doesn't want to hear it.
You want to control everything about her.
But you don't see.
No, you don't see.

She's grown up.
She's not stupid.
Smarter then you'll ever know.
This is her life.
Life is her's.

Now she's running her life.
But you don't see that.
You still try to run her life.

Why can't you see?
Why can't you hear?

This is who she is.
What she's become.
A women that's her ownself.
This is what her life is.
Life is who she is.

She's here smarter then before.
Don't hear her.
Don't care.
She's not a baby,
Or a little kid.
Not anymore.

So wake up and see she's grown up.
Making her own choices.
Running her life.
You'll never control her again.

So This is my life.
Get the hell out of it.
Cause This is not your life anymore.
So move on.
Leave me alone.

This is my life to fight.
Life will fight back.
But I'll be still standing.
I'll get right back up again & again.

This is my life.
No one will control my life.

LIFE IS IN ME!!!!!!

by me that's who!!!!!

THAT'S WHAT.....!!!!!!!

Hey Boy!
You saw her sitting alone.
Took her out.
Treated her like a diamond.

But something change.

Did you change?
Yes, you did.

Broken inside.
Shatter her like a Gem,
Falling to the floor.

What did you want.
Cotrol her.
Change her.
Did everything you could?
Yeah, That's what you did.
That's what you did.

Now here you are.
Seeing her smiling and laughing.
Dancing with her friends.

What do you want.
You try to talk down to her.
Try to tell her what to do.
But she won't do that,
Be that.
That's what you want.
That's what you want.

But she's stronger,
Then you think.
She's not the girl, you met.

So listen carefully.
She'll never change.
You'll never control her.
Can't tell her what to do.

Hey Boy!
You say that she's,
Just getting attention.
Say that's not the girl you met.
That's not who she is.
Yeah, That's what you say.
That's what you say.

Now She's free to do,
What she want's.
She control's her life.
She'll say what she want's.

So what do you,
Have to say.

What do you,
Have to say now.

Hey Boy's!!

We are Women!
We Run our life!

You can't Say.
You can't Do.
You can't Want.
Anything, Anymore!!!!!!

by me that's who!!!!

THE GIRL OF HER OWN!!!

She sit's here alone,
Watching everyone around her,
Having someone near.
Someone to hold them,
When their not okay,
When they some comfort and love.

Why can't she have that, have this?
Why doesn't anyone see her for who she is?

Cause she's....
Not going to pray for another day.
Not going to cry anymore.
Don't want to break down.
Don't want to be those "type" of girl's.
Cause she's just who she is.

She walk's alone in the darkness.
Rain come down on her.
Cold, shivering,but she doesn't care.
No, she doesn't care anymore.

Cause she'll....
Never pray for a new life.
Never going to cry over anyone, again.
Not going to breakdown for what they say.
Not going to walk with the glam girl's.
Cause she'll alway's stand on her own.
She'll alway's stand out.

She'd Unique.
She'll never break.
She's standing alone.
She'll Never cry.
She's Different.
She'll Never pray.

No, she'll never do that , be that.

Cause she's....
Not praying for herself,
But for everyone else.
Not crying anymore,
She's done it all too much.

Never breaking down,
Cause she's been broken way too often.
Never fitting in,
She's not one of "those" girl's.

And now she's becoming,
The girl she want's to be.

Sit's here alone.
Walk's in the darkness.
Stand's in the shadow's.
She's in this crazy world.

Cause she'll....
Never Pray.
Never Going To Cry.
Never Going To Fit In.

And that's the way she like's it.

Rain pooring down hard.
Lighting crack's loudly.
Thunder roaring all round.
She's standing on top of this hill alone.

CAUSE SHE'S THE GIRL OF HER OWN!!!

by me that's who

MY FEELING'S!!!!!!!!

I'M HAPPY.
I'M LAUGHING.
I'M SMILING.
I'M JOKING.
THESE ARE MINE HAPPY FEELINGS!!

I'M CRYING.
I'M YELLING.
I'M SCREAMING.
I'M MAD.
I'M ANGRY.
THESE ARE MINE ANGRIER FEELINGS!!

I'M PRAYING.
I'M HOLDING ON.
I'M LIVING FOR THE DAY.
I'M BLEEDING INSIDE.
I'M HURTING INSIDE.
THESE ARE MINE FEELINGS THAT ARE INSIDE OF ME.

THESE ARE ALL MINE FEELINGS THAT,
ARE ALWAY'S INSIDE AND OUTSIDE OF ME.

BY ME THATS WHO!!!!!

OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE THE DAMAGE!!!!!!!!!

WHAT ARE PEOPLE THINKING IN THIS WORLD?
WHY CAN'T THEY EYES AND SEE THE DAMAGE?
THERE ARE SO MANY DEATHS AROUND THEM.
BUT THEY WILL NEVER SEE THEM!
THEY DON'T EVEN SMELL THE BLOOD!
THEY JUST GO ON ABOUT THEIR DAY.
LIKE THERE ISN'T A CARE IN THIS DAMN WORLD.

WE CARRY THE PAINAND THE DATHS IN OUR HEART'S.
THEIR COLD HEART'S CAN'T FEEL THE PAIN OR DEATH'S.
WE CRY, WE CAN'T BREATH.
WE WISH THEY COULD LIVE FOREVER.
BUT THEY WILL NEVER WILL.

HERE THEY COME MARCHING DOWN THE STREET'S.
NO TEAR'S FALL FROM THEIR EYE'S.
DO THEY EVEN GIVE A DAMN??
IS IT THE FACT THEY HAVE NO HEART'S AND SOUL'S ANYMORE??

YOU LISTEN TO EVERYTHING HE TELL'S YOU.
HE TELL'S YOU TO GO WAR.
YOU GO NO QUESTION'S ASKED.
HE TELL'S YOU THAT IF YOU FEEL ANYTHING.
FEEL THE FIGHT & KILLING THAT IS IN YOU ALL.
FOR ANYOTHER FEELING'S ARE FOR THOSE "OTHER" PEOPLE!!
AND YOU ARE NOT THOSE "OTHER"PEOPLE.
YOU ARE A FIGHTING, KILLING MACHINE.
HE NOW TELL'S YOU THAT.
"FIGHTING AND KILLING ARE THE ONLY WAY'S TO GO."
NOW GO FIGHT AND KILL.
YOU GO TO WAR.

BUT WHY ARE THEY LISTENING TO HIM??
WHY DON'T THEY LISTEN TO THEIR HEART'S AND SOUL'S??
HAVE THEY LOST THEIR HEART'S AND SOUL'S??

SO, NOW IT'SOUR TURN TO STAND UP.
WE WILL SPEAK OUR MINDS.
WE WILL NOT REST UNTIL THEY SEE WHAT THEY HAVE DONE.
THE DEATH'S, THE PAIN, THE BLOOD AND THE TEAR'S.
NOW THEY WILL OPEN THEIR EYE'S.
AND SEE WHAT THEY HAVE REALLY DONE TO US ALL.

THEY LIE THEIR WEAPON'S DOWN.
THEY FALL TO THEIR KNEE'S.
THEIR ASKING FORGIVNESS.
THEY WILL HAVE NIGHTMARE'S NOW.
THEY WILL NEVER AND CAN NEVER BRING THEM BACK.
THEY ARE DYING NOW.
THEY FEELING EVERYTHING THAT WE HAVE FELT.

THEY ARE DEAD NOW.
THEIR SPIRIT'S WILL NEVER AND CAN NEVER REST.
UNTIL THEY MAKE EVERYONE SEE THE FIGHTING AND KILLING,
IS NEVER THE WAY TO GO.
THESE ARE THE SPIRIT'S OF THE SOLDIER'S.

BREATH NOW!
LIVE NOW!
FOR THEY HAVE FINALLY REALIZE OF WHAT THEY HAVE DONE.
THEY CAN REST NOW.
BUT THEY WILL ALWAY'S PROTECT, THE LIVING AND THE DEAD.

THEY HAVE OPEN THEIR EYE'S AND SEEN THE
PAIN, DEATH'S, AND THE DAMAGE!!!!!!

BY ME THATS WHO!!

STOP THE HURT!!!!!

SITTING HERE FEELING MORE CONFUSED.
ON WHAT'S GOING ON IN THE WORLD.
THIS PAIN, AND ANGRIER IN MY HEART IS,
GROWING MORE AND MORE PAINFUL.
EACHTIME I HEAR SOMEONE DIES OVER SEA'S.
OR IN OTHER PART'S OF THE WORLD.

WHY DO THEY START WAR'S?
WHY DO THEY START FIGHT'S?
WHY DO PEOPLE KILL?
WHY DO THEY USE GUN'S AND KNIVE'S?

I WANT TO TAKE THEIR PAIN AWAY.
I WANT TO CARRY THEIR PAIN IN MY HEART.
SO THEY KNOW WHAT PEACE, LOVE, HAPPINESS, & JOY REALLY IS.
I WISH I COULD WIPE AWAY ALL OF THEIR TEAR'S

WHY CAN'T ANYONE SEE WHAT THESE KIDS,
AND THEIR FAMLIES ARE GOING THROUGH??

STOP THIS PAIN IN THIS WORLD, STOP THE WAR,
FIGHTING, AND THE KILLING!!!!!!

LIE DOWN YOUR GUN'S AND KNIVE'S.
LET THEM LIVE IN A WORLD FULL OF PEACE.


THIS POEM IS DEDICATED TO EVERYONE IN IRAQU AND TO
EVERYONE THAT WAS AFFECTED BY THE TSUNAMI ATTACK!!!!!!!

BY ME THATS WHO!!!!!

THIS IS ME!!!!

I'm Different.
I'm Weird.
I'm Crazy.
I'm Hyper.
All these things are ME!!

They say I'm Unique.
They say I'm A Freak.
They say I'm A Punk
They say I'm An Outcast.
But I don't care This is ME!!

So, you call Me Different.
You can say I'm Weird.
You can call Me Crazy.
You can even say I'm Hyper.
This is who I AM!!

So, call Me The Outcast.
Call Me The Punk.
Call Me Unique.
Even Call Me The Freak.

CAUSE I REALLY DON'T CARE ANYMORE.
THIS WILL ALWAYS BE ME!!!!

by me thats who!!

VAMPIRE POEM

Tears are falling down her face.
She can't bare this loniness that she feels inside.
Can't take this anymore.
She tries to breath.
But she Can never breath again.

She can never feel or hear her heart beat ever again.
For she is not dead.
And she is not alive.
But the living dead.
She is a vampire.

Her tears fall blackish red.
She can't bare the breakness that is inside.
For she has lost someone dear to her yet again.

She loved a human, But he died of old age.
She loved her kind, But he was killed by mortals.
Now she doesn't know if she can love again.

But has she found another love.
Does she want to trust someone again?

But this new love is not a mortal.
And this new love is not a vampire.

But a shape-shifter.
He is a warewolve.

Can she let someone in again?
Even if he's not of her own kind?
Or even on mortal?
But a different kind of immortal.

So she'll wait and see.
Let the tear's fall from her face.
So she'll wait to see what will happen.
In this so-called-life.

by me thats who

IM A FREAK SO LET'S LEAVE AT THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO FAR AWAY

Close your eyes.
What do you see?
Do you see the pain?
Do you see the deaths?

Want to go far away.
Where there is no pain or deaths.
Where you can be free.

Now here I am, eyes are open.
Living in darkness.
So damn hard to break out.

So, now I want to go far away.
Where there's a bright tunnel.
I want to breath.
Want to be free.

Can you help me?
Can I breath again?
Can I even live again?

Can't do this again.
Want to scream as loud as I can.

My heart has been broken.
Had to put it back together.
But it still hurts.
Still has a hole.
Help please.

Want to go far away.
Where I can heal my wounds.
Where I can be myself.
Want to be free.

I'm tired.
I can't breath.
I'm hurting.
Just need some help.
Maybe just a little help. Ha Ha!!

Want to go far away.
With no pain or deaths.
No darkness.
No heartbreaks.
Want to be free from, everything.
Let's go far away.
Just far away.

CLOSING MY EYES!!!

by me thats who!!

FREAK THOUGHTS!!

WHY IS EVERY TIME I TURN AROUND FUCKIN PEOPLE ARE PUTTING OTHER PEOLPE DOWN. ITS EITHER THEIR WEIGHT, THE WAY THEY LOOK, OR WHATEVER IS ON THEIR FUCKIN MIND. SO HERE WHAT I SAY FUCK OFF AND LEAVE THEM ALONE. JUST CAUSE SOMEONE IS DIFFERENT FROM EVERYONE ELSE . YOU DON'T HAVE TO PUT THEM DOWN. SO GET A FUCKIN LIFE PEOPLE . LET THEM BE THEM.

AND OTHER THING THOSE PEOPLE MIGHT GOING THOUGH SUME HARD TIMES, SO WHY DON'T YOU ASK THEM WHATS WRONG NOT PUT THEM DOWN.

AND ONE MORE THING YOU MIGHT JUST MISS OUT GETTING TO KNOW A GREAT PERSON WHO IS FUN TO BE AROND.

SO GROW THE HELL UP PEOPLE.
GET A BRAIN.
GET A CLUE.
GET A FUCKIN LIFE!!!

BY ME THATS FUCKIN WHO

GURL'S WORLD

Having such a bad day.
I wish I could, crawl back into my bed.
No, I can't do that.
I have to go on about mine day.

Everyone around me is driving me insane.
Why can't anyone leave me alone/

I just want to go inside my head.
Just let me close my eyes.
Let me dream.
Let my imagnation run.

This is my world.
No one can tell me what to do.
No one is going to bring me down.
You can't come in.
Cause this is my world.

I'm getting so frustarded.
Can't stand this anyone.
Everyone is driving me out of my damn mind.

I want to sream as loud as I can.
I just want to be me.
Dream's are going their way.
My imagnation still running wild.

Cause it's my universe.
You can never control me.
I'm so damn independent.
You can never break me down.
Cause this will alway's be my crazy world.

We will never be you .
Don't tell us what to do.
What to say.
We'll never be that.
We'll never going to change.

No, not for you and not for them.
We're not your's to call your own.
You can't control us.
Just leave us alone.
We're not them, and we're not you.

So, here I'm to say.
This is for myself and all of Gurl friends.
So back down.
Get the HELL out.
Cause this is our world.
Yeah this is my world.

Having such a bad day.
Everyone is driving me insane.
I'm so frustarded.
Going out of my damn mind.
Can't take this anymore.

Closing my eyes.
Dream's are going their way.
Letting my imagnation run it's crazy way.

Cause it's my world.
You can't tell me what to do.
It's their world.
Can't control them.
It's our world.
You will never bring us down.

My World.
Crazy World.
Weird World.
Independent World.

It's their world, Our world.

WELCOME TO OUR WORLD!!!!!!!!

by: me thats who!!